Two days at >2000 cal. Alcohol is a destructive beast. I feel like I'll have to struggle to get back on the wagon. I feel blimpy and inflated and unattractive.
I'm so confused. My boyfriend has told me that he thinks it would be hot if I fooled around with other people. What does that mean? A guy said that he wants to be titty-fucked and hit on me. Another keeps giving me backrubs. I don't even know if I want to fool around. I'm so confused. I don't feel like I can do this while being so unattractive.
No confidence. No monogamy?
I think I'm a girl who can't handle too many boys at once.
I'm so, so confused.
Weight = I have no idea, still no scale. Will remedy soon.
I may have a job. Hooray?
Sorry for the scattered post. Hello to my knew followers! Glad to see you here. :)
Until tomorrow.
-Gwen
eh, hope things sort out with the boy... i don't understand how their brains work honestly...
ReplyDeletehope you are able to get back on track with your eating and stuff... and yay for job! xx
Congratulations on the job! And it'll be okay. Alcohol will screw up anyone's plans, and it's so hard for me to avoid it sometimes. But if you can get just one good day, you'll probably have all your motivation back. (At least, that's how it usually works for me... fingers crossed.)
ReplyDeleteYour boy situation is confusing! I would probably take the back rubs and ditch the guy who's practically begging you to cheat on him. Even if you don't think you deserve the attention, I'm sure you do :)
Feel better soon :)