The Post Without a Scale

So, not going to get around to going to Target until the weekend, so I have no idea what my weight is! In some ways it is a relief, but not knowing my weight causes constant anxiety. Have I been eating too much? Is what I eat healthy? Is not eating any less healthy than overeating, like I was before?

I feel shallow. Like I've lost a personal depth because I'm so worried about my weight. What do I hope to get from this, I wonder.  Obviously, thin perfection. But I'm not sure I'll even look very good when I drop weight, I tell myself. Maybe the ugly is in some part of me that I can't starve off. Some part of me that, without, I wouldn't even recognize myself. In my face. My broad bone structure. My shallow, shallow lifestyle.

Well, I guess I'll update you on how the last couple of days have been, calorie wise.

Tuesday: 1,074
Breakfast-2 servings OJ (220 cal)
Lunch- (1/2 can of chicken noodle soup 120 cal) + (1/3 can of tomato soup 90 cal)
Dinner - (1 beef Empanada from an awesome food truck 242 cal) + (apple 72 cal)
Snacks - (15 baked tortilla chips 160 cal) + (6 tbl spoons Salsa 30 cal) + (Serving Sun Chips 140 cal)

Wednesday:1,073
Breakfast-(1 cup 2% milk 122 cal) + (1 granola bar 140 cal)
Lunch - (1 cup "Healthy" Chicken fried rice 304 cal) + (1/2 bottle of Lemonade 130 cal)
Dinner - 1 cup Chicken Lo Mein 278 cal
Snacks - (10 baked tortilla chips 79 cal)+ (2 T salsa 10 cal)

Today:
Breakfast - (1/2 small box fruit loops) + (1/2 cup milk 62 cal)

That's all so far!

I'm a little worried about my numbers, but I'm trying to be as accurate as possible by measuring out my food when I can. I also use "My Fitness Pal" for most of the calorie amounts.

Oh well, wish I had something more to say. Perhaps I'll tell y'all about my crazy cursing professor tomorrow.

Ciao,
Gwen